It’s been pointed out to me by a couple of friends that I come across as pretty sad lately on this blog. I think I mainly have been inspired to blog when I’m worried or upset or sad about something, so the emotional balance here is skewed. Anyway, it just occurred to me [...]
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plays nicely with others
Posted in self, work on July 23, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Today was my new coworker’s first day. So I spent the whole day sitting next to her, teaching how to do what we do. It actually went very well. She was pleasant, smart, fun, and interesting. We’ve already had some nice conversations. I have no reservations about sharing close quarters with her, which is a [...]
finishing things
Posted in self on July 22, 2007 | 2 Comments »
I have a problem finishing things. I’ve always had difficulty finishing projects and stuff like that. I think it’s about not liking things to be over. I remember crying at midnight on New Year’s Eve as a kid because 1988 was over forever, and we would never ever see it again. Recently, [...]
brain splat
Posted in life, self, work on July 21, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Yesterday’s post was…a little insane. Sorry about that. I wrote the first half of it after getting the phone call about the job, when I was still trying to get my head around what was going on. Then I talked it over with W and also with one of our friends who [...]
an opportunity
Posted in Spirit, life, self, work on July 20, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I got a phone call last night, offering me a job. (Well, asking me to apply for a job, but I think I’ll get it if I apply.) I’m trembling.
Here’s the background. Six years ago, I went to school to become a minister. I graduated two years ago, and haven’t done anything with it. I [...]
detachment
Posted in TTC, life, nothing, self, work on July 17, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I’m having one of those days where I feel detached and yet everything around me is defined in merciless clarity. None of the normal edge-blurring effect that helps you walk through your life without noticing every little thing. I feel like the objects on my desk are all too real, and I notice the ugly [...]
feeling blue
Posted in cats & dogs, life, marriage, self on July 8, 2007 | 3 Comments »
I’ve been feeling blue on the weekends lately. I’ve been trying to figure out why, because that’s what I do. I feel things and then I analyze the heck out of them. So anyway, I’ve been trying to figure out why I feel kind of down on the weekends, and often I’ve [...]
Posted in TTC, nothing, self on July 5, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve been afraid to comment on anyone’s blog lately because I realized that if they clicked on my blog link, the first thing they would know about me would be that post about our “fight.” And so I’ve been thinking, Gee, I really should write something new so that’s not on the top of my [...]
loneliness
Posted in life, self, work on June 20, 2007 | 2 Comments »
I don’t usually feel lonely. I like my life, my work, my home, my marriage. But it takes me a long time to make new friends, and it’s taking me a particularly long time in my new community. I’ve been working and living here full time for almost two years now. But still, no friends. [...]
Posted in anger, life, self on June 11, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
This is going to be a nasty week. I’m still waiting to hear anything about the job, so I think that raises my anxiety level. And of course the PMS is ratcheting up, too. My tolerance for stupidity is just about zero. I have a very well-meaning coworker, office-mate, actually, who just can drive me [...]
